09 Dec Last Day in the Office
Tomorrow is my last day in the office. I’ve felt a little tearful and a little bit sad all week. Don’t get me wrong I’m excited about all that is to come and really looking forward to life not being as crazy, but I am also a little bit sad that things haven’t quite worked out as I expected.
I wrote about some of my reasons for finishing work in my piece on Changing from Lawyer to Blogger, but I’ve been trying to identify what is making me feel a bit sad.
So here’s me trying to explain what I’m going to miss.
I’m going to miss having to look smart, put make up on and get my heels on. Even if I do take all the ‘war paint’ off as soon as I get home and can usually be found in pyjamas by the time the kids go to bed at 7, I think I’m going to miss actually having to put it all on and get out in the morning.
I’m going to miss the feeling that I get when I’ve sorted something really complicated out for a client and I think – that was impressive – that sort of feeling certainly didn’t happen every day by any means but when it did come it made me understand why I did the job.
I’m going to miss the people and the banter. I have a really nice team in the office and I genuinely like them all. I’m going to miss that camaraderie of the office as I won’t have one.
I’m going to miss people thinking my job is important (which I know is a little silly). There is no getting away from the fact that people have a level of respect for lawyers and I think some people certainly think I’m crazy to be leaving this world.
I’m going to miss the money (although I am surprised how far down the list/my thought process this has come) it paid well and our monthly income will definitely be significantly lower.
I’m going to miss the challenge of fitting it all in. Sometimes I was proud of how much I’d managed to achieve in a day and whilst I’m looking for more balance and more time to myself, I know initially I’ll find this a little strange.
I’m going to miss a part of me that has been a part of me since I was 21.
But having said all that I am really really excited about the new opportunities to come, so it is onwards and upwards from here! I am ready to change my definition of all.